What do I believe?
I couldn't say that I believe many things, even though most of the things I used to believe in have gradually been discredited. I used to have a lot to say, both about the world and about myself. Not that this matters, but that was important to me somehow. So I gradually lost everything I used to believe. I think it sounds sad, but it sure doesn't feel sad. It's a soothing sensation: "everything is gonna be alright", for example. This is one of the biggest lies anyone could ever hear, but it was terribly important for me at some point. Now I guess I understand that the world doesn't have any obligation to make things turn out the way I want them to. I don't even think I could get my mother to fulfill my expectations, let alone the whole world. And the world doesn't really care what you think, it won't change for you.
People around you aren't always nice or thoughtful. And we all grow old. So will you.
Sounds pretty desperate, but I type all of this with a weird anxiety. Unlike everything else I had chose to believe, those despair-ish ideas are true. They'll give you a strong and tiny way of thinking and feeling. No desperation required when you weren't expecting all that much from the start, after all. Don't despair in the face of what's inevitable, but rather choose to live despite everything. Yes, it's just a choice. Very simple and subtle.
So, that's what I believe.
I believe that everything would be (almost) the same if I wasn't here. And if there's anything to be understood about this subject (?), this is it: whatever you want, whoever you think you are... you're not all that. Stuff would just go on if you weren't here, and the sun would still revolve around the center of our galaxy unaware of your sadness, happiness, success or failure. So if you've been doing well in life, reaching your objectives, enjoying everything to the fullest: don't get too cocky, because you're just like the rest of us. On the other hand, if you're feeling like crap, hate yourself, is facing a divorce or some other form of failure defined by our society: don't worry too much, because you're just like the rest of us.
See you around.
People around you aren't always nice or thoughtful. And we all grow old. So will you.
Sounds pretty desperate, but I type all of this with a weird anxiety. Unlike everything else I had chose to believe, those despair-ish ideas are true. They'll give you a strong and tiny way of thinking and feeling. No desperation required when you weren't expecting all that much from the start, after all. Don't despair in the face of what's inevitable, but rather choose to live despite everything. Yes, it's just a choice. Very simple and subtle.
So, that's what I believe.
I believe that everything would be (almost) the same if I wasn't here. And if there's anything to be understood about this subject (?), this is it: whatever you want, whoever you think you are... you're not all that. Stuff would just go on if you weren't here, and the sun would still revolve around the center of our galaxy unaware of your sadness, happiness, success or failure. So if you've been doing well in life, reaching your objectives, enjoying everything to the fullest: don't get too cocky, because you're just like the rest of us. On the other hand, if you're feeling like crap, hate yourself, is facing a divorce or some other form of failure defined by our society: don't worry too much, because you're just like the rest of us.
See you around.
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