Back to the basics

It happens all the time, and it requires a lot of time to happen. Even though I'd like to give it a more specific name, I'll just refer to it on this article as "processing". Some other possible names would be: digestion, elaboration and thinking. The problem with those names is that they imply something that isn't actually happening, such as a movement from a messy state to an organized state (thinking and elaboration), or some kind of specific set of steps that would had to be taken and guarantee an outcome (elaboration and digestion). The processing is merely about paying attention to something long enough.

And the more you do it, the harder it is to do, like practice and learning, but backwards. As you do more and more processing you do, more effort you have to put into it. It's a lot like praying: you don't do it for everybody else, but having someone to get you through it helps a lot. Actually accepting you have to do it is terribly painful, except for the ones who take for granted the fact that they're outsiders. From where I stand, that's not a simple step. Specially because it messes you up badly.