Still processing
Quite a while ago, I used to try whatever I wanted to the fullest. I just felt like quietly sitting around wasn't good enough, wasn't intense enough. So that simple idea was strong enough to drive me crazy over the simplest things. I really didn't know that, even if you're lying back alone on a dark room without any sound, there's always stuff happening to you.
That fucked up girlfriend you had when you were fifteen? Remember the shit she yelled at you just to get you pissed? You probably don't, but it's still lingering somewhere, echoing around. Stuff don't go away. Remebering drives you so much more insane than forgetting, but we do remember a lot of things, even if it doesn't hold any particularly important meaning to you.
It's there, and you have do deal with it somehow.
I got so frightened when I first realized life was like this... So this brings me to a new concept, which is unstuck-ability, so to speak. It's just the very handy ability to let things slide for a while. Maybe some of you would like to remeber that scene in Fight Club where the main nameless character meets his power animal inside the cave of healing, and it happens to be a penguin that says: slide. And that's exactly what I'm talking about. Forgetting really important stuff, even for a little while, is terribly important. So, the point here is not really saying good bye to things that are past, but rather giving a break on things that take up too much, so as to make room for new things. Like when you love someone, but she starts hating you because you won't give her space. Sure, sometimes she just happens to be a bitch and she don't want you to call while she's fucking your best friend.
But if you get to the new things talk, getting to talk about identity and who you are is a must.
That fucked up girlfriend you had when you were fifteen? Remember the shit she yelled at you just to get you pissed? You probably don't, but it's still lingering somewhere, echoing around. Stuff don't go away. Remebering drives you so much more insane than forgetting, but we do remember a lot of things, even if it doesn't hold any particularly important meaning to you.
It's there, and you have do deal with it somehow.
I got so frightened when I first realized life was like this... So this brings me to a new concept, which is unstuck-ability, so to speak. It's just the very handy ability to let things slide for a while. Maybe some of you would like to remeber that scene in Fight Club where the main nameless character meets his power animal inside the cave of healing, and it happens to be a penguin that says: slide. And that's exactly what I'm talking about. Forgetting really important stuff, even for a little while, is terribly important. So, the point here is not really saying good bye to things that are past, but rather giving a break on things that take up too much, so as to make room for new things. Like when you love someone, but she starts hating you because you won't give her space. Sure, sometimes she just happens to be a bitch and she don't want you to call while she's fucking your best friend.
But if you get to the new things talk, getting to talk about identity and who you are is a must.
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